My pride is definitely on the floor.

Ever feel alone?... Just flat out lonely?...

I know that I have God, and I am not belittling that or saying it doesn't count or doesn't matter because it does and when I'm down like this He is the only one that can pick me back up.

I don't know how to write about what I'm feeling, what I'm going thru, without sounding like I'm trying to throw myself a pitty party because that is NOT my intention. Here goes nothing...

I'm 25, single, over weight and consumed with my job (which I love)... But I have no time for a social life and the time that I do have I don't have friends to fill that time with. (Ok.. For all of you who are my friends pause... Most of you are married and/or have children and the rest of you live out of this area so I am not saying you are not my friends, just venting.) I love the moments I get to spend with families that mean the world to me (especially ones that are like my own family and i am kind of that extra family member) and times when I get visits from my out of town friends but what about the nights I want a good girl friend to come over to watch some goofy reality tv show, or talk about the non existent men in my life, or sit out back and sip wine while debating over whether Channing Tatum or Adam Lavine is hotter. There are several people I am acquaintances with that I would absolutely love to embark on a closer friendship with but I don't know how to start that.. It's not high school anymore and I haven't had to "make friends" in a long time...in college I was in a sorority so making friends was kind of easy and laid out for me. But now it's different... I don't wanna creep people out by seeming like a stalker or bother people, ya know?... Ok.. This is starting to get pitiful... How can I change the way this sounds?...

Hmm... Well I'll just end it by saying.. I don't want pity... Just needed to vent and sometimes writing things out helps, And these long talks with God while on my new treadmill are helping... Slowly but surely...

I know God has a plan for me and I trust Him with my heart... I just want some good girl friends too... Ya know?...

Peace. Love. and Prayer.