stumbling thru opened doors.

"As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received." Ephesians 4:1

A verse I have prayed since my senior year of high school, read it, talked about it but have I lived it? I would say probably not to the potential I could, should or would. Well that is up until about 2 weeks ago. Let me back up foar just a minute..... I have been called to youth ministry. I have started helping with the middle school youth at my church, chaperoning conferences, rafting trip, Sunday youth group and just establishing relationships and friendships with the youth. With that being said I haven't really stepped out of my comfort zone until recently, which brings me back to living out my life verse........
I was asked by a lady I know to be put on a rotation of youth pastors for First Priority at the high school I graduated from. At first reaction I was like YES, what an awesome experience but then the reality started setting in and I remembered how terrified I am of speaking in front of groups. I mean you're talking about the girl who took speech in college online because I was too terrified to take it like normal people. Well I decided to call someone who was a Godly person in my life and would help me with my decision. First person I called I had to leave a voicemail, second person also left a voicemail, thrid person, yep you guessed it, had to leave a voicemail but the 4th....the 4th person I called answered! Well silly me, I knew exactly what everyone I called was going to say to me, DO IT, DUH! I guess I just needed to hear it or have someone push me, someone I trusted.
So....I told the lady who asked me this big life chaning question yes, of course. But only with butterflies and knots in my stomach and probably the most terrified but yet excited expression on my face.

I soon realized that there was no way I was going to do this on my own so my only other option was to just hand it all over to God.
I was asked to give my testamony and to talk about the youth rally which was supposed to be tomorrow.
I did it. On September 9, 2010 I started living out my life verse. It is definitely not easy but that is what living for Christ is all about. I gave my testimony and spoke about the youth rally with lots of ums, trembling hands and a smile on my face.

So this blog is my faith journey through ministry. Ready or not....here we come!

God, thank you for the doors you are opening in my life and the confidence you give me to stumble through them. Without you I am nothing. Amen.