Stuff on my mind..

#1. Bullies.
Why must people bully? I honestly dot get it.... Do people not realize that they are hurting people in big ways? A bully thinks they are funny an are showing power to everyone by picking on someone and making their life miserable but in reality it shows how ignorant thy really are and they are seriously hurting people in BIG ways! We go through life only worried about ourselves and not realizing that the things we say about and to others will probably have a big effect on them! I mean watch the news, there are people taking their lives because they are being bullied... How is that right??.. My question is when will these people, these bullies, realize the hurt and pain they are causing on other peoples lives? IT'S REALLY NOT FUNNY!.. Grow up!

#2. Starting an Organization.
I want to start an organization for kids from broken homes... A Christian organization. I have a heart for these kids and want to help them and reach out to them but how? First of all how do I start an organization? Second, what all would it do?... I need help... I need someone to help take my ideas and put them into action. This population is growing as we speak and some of them go through their parents divorce completely alone thinking that no one will understand or that they will be ok in time.. But I want to help them realize they don't have to go through this alone and that there are people out there that understand.

#3. Love?
I know God has someone for all of us and he is preparing us for one another but as a human being.... I get discouraged and have second thoughts. I teach my youth to be patient and to trust in God but I have a hard time too... I am 25, own my own home, have two steady jobs that I love, have my degree... But I have no one to share it with. People tell me that I'm still young and it will happen but those people that tell me that we're already married by my age and most already had their first child and are still happily married... Why haven't I ever felt love?.. I know you can't rush perfection and that's what God is and that's what he is preparing for me but hey, I'm human and I can't help but think about it.

#4. Fundraisers for the youth group.
I want to come up with creative ways of fundraising for the youth group outside of the church. It seems like all of the fundraisers we do end up being in church and the congregation feels obligated to donate and we very much appreciate it but we need to get creative and get out in the community... I just don't know what that entails.. I am not the most creative when it comes to this. All I know is that the youth and I want to have a good reserve of money set aside so that we can do nice things for others but we are struggling with how to get that money... =\


I guess I have a lot going on in this lil head of mine... There is probably mor than just those 4 things but right now they are the ones standing out. For now I am just going to enjoy my day off and get ready for my youth advisor meeting later. Thanks for reading and if you have any answers to any of the above I will gladly take them!!!

I am an adult too...

Ever feel like you will never grow up in some people's eyes? It's a frustrating feeling isn't it?

I am 25 but still feel like most see me as 17 or so, which in turn makes me feel like I am still a kid. I am not saying I want to grow up too fast or have everyone see me as this super mature, all business adult but I would like some respect. I figured it would be the kids, you know the teens and pre-teens, that would have a hard time seeing me as an adult and showing me respect but it's not... It's the other "adults".

It's hard growing up around the same people that knew you as a child. Holding a professional job around them is also sort of difficult... What Fo I have to do to gain their respect? It's not every adult, some of them even have to remind me that I am an adult when I am feeling down on myself, but there are a lot. It's the ones that I thought had my back and were pulling for me, they are the ones that have let me down.

I don't just fly by the seat of my pants, I do sometimes make quick decisions when I see a great opportunity but they aren't immature decisions. I just wish they would believe in me, ya know? Just trust me don't brush me off or pick apart what I am trying to do...

This is a note to myself: remember to respect those younger than me and remember, they are growing up too and won't always be children.

Believe in me. Don't scold me.

2012

It's the 2nd day of a new year! And I can't wait to see what it has to bring me, my family, my friends and my ministry!

I have spent the whole Christmas break watching all of the old seasons of One Tree Hill and as silly as it may sound... I wish I had a life like that! Granted it is television and i could deal without all of that drama but I feel like I have missed out on that amazing group of friends... I mean I feel like I had it all when I was in high school, amazing friends, great memories, sports, family.. It was great and now it's like it's gone?...

I want to spend 2012 not worrying about what I had or what I could have had but instead I am going to live life and spend my time with those that matter. I whine too much, well I'm done! So if I whine in any of my blogs y'all better call me out on it!

So here is to 2012! To new memories, true friendships, family time, trips with my youth and growing closer to God! Who is with me! Let's make our own Tree Hill, it's a state of mind you know?? ;-)